First job, best decision ever!

If you don’t make time to work on creating the life that you want, you’re eventually going to be forced to spend a lot of time dealing with a life you don’t want – Kevin Ngo

It is my first job ever so basically I am a neophyte in the corporate world. First months of job, no doubt I was really excited and happy that I am employed. I was very active and participated on all discussions. I raised my hand for stuffs that I don’t understand. I even had to buy something good to wear each month to be professionally presentable. One time, Performance metrics was announced and thought that I could grab this chance to stand out and be recognized. Part of the metrics is speed, to verify as many patients as we can for a month and of course, there is a money amount on that. And I was very good with speed but one thing that I failed with. The more I speed up verifying eligibility the more mistakes I commit. I have learned that speed shouldn’t overlap accuracy. It should be balance; it should be taken one step at a time. Each must be keenly observed and verified. No one gets successful overnight, you have to earn it. It takes a lot of time, focus and determination to get a job well done.

Being on the graveyard shift was a very huge adjustment for me. I maybe a party animal but I am not used being wide awake till the sun rises. It became very hard for me to concentrate and to absorb all facts and information on Dental Insurances. It came to a point that I became sceptical if I really should be in this job. I was doing all the same thing every day. Uploading Chart List, transferring Appointments, verifying eligibility and sending them to the centre. I started to lose my urge to come to the office and do my job. For me the 12 mn-9am work schedule was extremely toxic! Mood swings, High BMI, 2-3 hours of sleep each day which resulted to stress and depression. Not to mention that I have Alopecia and I had hair falls all over my station. I couldn’t focus anymore on my task. I tried looking at the bigger picture and kept a positive attitude but it was really blurry. “I don’t want to be here anymore”, I swear that there were no days that I never mentioned that phrase to myself and to my friends. I started to have visions of my long term plans and goals and I realized that if I’m going to be stuck here, nothing will happen to my life on the near future.

Finally, I got one on one talk with my Team lead. And I finally had the courage to tell her that I am resigning this job. That this really isn’t for me. She supported me all the way and helped me with the papers I needed. Sometimes you got to stand alone, just to actually know how damn strong you are, even if it’s longer than you expected. In my case I chose to have a peace of mind. You just can’t force yourself into something that you really don’t like because it will never work out. Life is too short to live in regrets. I am still young and full of potentials and I believe that I made the BEST decision ever.

ourroaringtwenties
ourroaringtwenties:

Reading this article about Lupita Nyong’o’s struggle with accepting her dark skin-tone growing up really resonated with me- I think this is a common sentiment among young girls of color, and an important one to address - Lupita’s success as a model is a direct jab at the archaic beauty standards of western society, and sends an empowering message to girls of color everywhere<3

ourroaringtwenties:

Reading this article about Lupita Nyong’o’s struggle with accepting her dark skin-tone growing up really resonated with me- I think this is a common sentiment among young girls of color, and an important one to address - Lupita’s success as a model is a direct jab at the archaic beauty standards of western society, and sends an empowering message to girls of color everywhere<3